I SWEAR TO GOD, MAN I WISH SHE WAS MY WIFE.

It's like as soon as she comes around, all these feelings come rushing back. Every single one. I can't shake it. I can't be her friend and just think those feelings are going to go away. I can't.

It's been a few months since we broke it off. I should have gotten all the way over this shit, by now. I haven't, though. She has my heart, still. I know it's causing friction for some other people, but fuck it. It's about me. I gotta deal with this shit, not anybody else. Nobody will ever care about me and my situations like I do.

I'm gonna try and start blogging on the regular now. I feel like I need to. There;s so much shit I need to say. I just need to actually sit down and SAY it. I also need blog topics. Pullin shit out of my ass is sometimes a hard thing to do.