This blog has turned into something else. When I first started blogging, it was for my honors advanced creative writing class during my senior year. I wrote about my life, shit that happened, things I learned, ect. Now blogging is like a job for me. Everyone always wants promo and wants to be on my blog and ect. That's cool. I've always said that I like to support independent people who are actually on their grind. i always wanted to be known for something other than a "celeb gossip blog" like most that I read myself. I want people to actually READ it and to actually have something to say about what I'm posting. With that being said, I'm going to try and turn my blog back into what it should be.
People are somethin else. Everyone always wants sometin, but when YOU need somethin, there's nobody to be found. Everyone always wants to be your friend, but it's all just talk unless you really act like a friend. People count favors and are always quick to pull the "you owe me" card. Friends don't do that. I'd rather you not even act like a friend, then lead me to believe otherwise.
The numbers aint addin up. How I got over 2,100 Twitter followers, supposed Facebook readers, and avid blog readers, but I get more retweets of my blog URL than views? I think people RT the link to make it somethin it's not. If you aren't going to read or comment it, then why waste your time retweeting it? That's like buying heels when you only know how to walk in sneakers. It's not worth it at all. I'd rather have avid, honest readers than have people retweetin the link to get on my good side.
I want people to know the real me. I want people to know that I am a young person who is still strugglin to find herself. I want people to know that I'm not afraid to tell it like it is, or that I have issues in my life, or that I have emotions. I want people to know that I'm vulnerable and that I have bipolar issues. That's who I am and I want people to know that.
All in all, I just want to bring the blog back to where I want it and to where it doesn't feel like a job to me. I'm still going to post music related shit, I'm still going to support the people who support me, and I'm still going to speak on real shit. I won't get lost in the hype again.