9.14.2010

SOMETHING UNEXPECTED.

I've never felt this type of hurt ever. How did I let myself get too caught up in the moment. I've never felt so low and unimportant. Its like this was the band aid that covered the hurt from before, and the band aid got torn off too soon. So now its even worse. Its sore and painful and almost unbearable. I don't know how I let it get this far, this fast....but it happened. Now I feel humiliated because I kept it all the way real and I thought I was getting real back. I wasn't. And this hurts.


I wrote that about a week ago.


Today I had to come to the realization that I shouldn't feel that way. It really doesn't matter the situation at all, you're happiness should never be stripped from you. You should never LET a situation even commence to overpowering you of your own emotions. Only one person should be in charge of how they feel. People may influence your emotions and situations may make you feel some type of way, but nothing should ever make you so unhappy that you feel lost and unhopeful. never hold on to false hopes, never look to a light that's not there, never let someone or something control you. It's hard when you're vulnerable, but you have to love yourself and treat yourself with the true definition of respect because nobody else will...

5 comments.:

__simplytrice said...

I understand this post was hard for you to write, but I know how you feel I've been through something similar where I let a situation get the best of me. I let my emotions overpower me to the point where I started stressing a lot, my hair started falling out and I was always having angry spats because I felt no one understood what I was going through. It took me some time though to realize that I tend to let situations get the best of me when I shouldn't. I just continue to pray and stay positive otherwise I'd always be at my lowest point. But I completely understand how you feel and I just hope you continue to stay true to your self and be positive no matter the situation.

Jamie || Esme said...

Omg. I sooooooooo feel you on this one. Took me a minute too but I realized I don't have the time to be putting up with someone's bullshit. What makes it worse is that you put all your hopes & whatever into it and in the end you're right back where you started - nowhere.

Glad you took back control of your emotions though girl. :) I see you!

Bethany-Ashley N. Crespin said...

Great post. I had a similar mishap last evening. Its great to know our situations never define who we are. Our power is in our hands...better to overcome than to succumb.

Blessings! :)

Gia said...

speechless...

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