You ever done something so unconsciously that you didn't even realize how harsh it would turn out? I did. I hurt my cousin. It sucks that I've got these "monster" tendencies that come from within me. I'm sorry. She knows who she is.

Below is a post from her:

i am having a hard time trying to figure out why there are so many people
around me changing. i know that change is good. also that it happens no matter if we want it to or not. the thing is that the people that are changing are people that i care about and i am related to. seems like the person that i once knew yesterday is not the same person that i am starting to notice. very recently i have been having a few issues with a cousin of mine. i do not know if it is just me being hard headed or infact if shes changing. this bothers me alot!!! first when i think about it i get sad. cuz we fight and argue through texts. then i get angry cuz i can not relate to her. i remember all to well what it was like to be 18. to have to live at home, work, go to school,the pressure of graduation. i hated my high school years. i knew alot of people-but didnt make alot of lasting freinds. sadley enough the people that i thought i could trust just fucked me over and washed thier hands of me in my 20's. i wish that i knew just what to say to make all her problems go away. i hope that in the near furture all of the stresses in her life vanish. and our relationship goes back to how it was. i miss it!!! i miss her.....

I hope she knows that I don't mean to hurt her. She means a lot to me and I look up to her. I don't look up to her just because she's my lovely cousin, but because she means a lot to me. She's a wonderful person inside and out & she's also tough. Stronger than I think I could ever be.


Chicky Love! said...

awwww, i'm so sorry about what happened between you too, but i hope you guys are making up and going to work things out, because family is very important no matter what. good luck with everything hun.

le said...

hope you guys make it work out