6.01.2009

WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING?

I've been looking around lately.
Where have all my friends gone?

Seriously.

Where is Jessica?
I can't even remember the last time I saw her.

Where is Rachel?
Everyday I feel like I lose her more and more.
Why? I don't want thins to happen.

Where is Autumn?
My best friend.
Why can't you be found?

My do I feel so distant from everybody?

Kelsey?
Why don't we talk as much?


Ginger?
Why don't I even feel close to the one person I talk to everyday?

What the fuck is going on.

I haven't heard from Jake in days....he doesn't even myspace me anymore.
Tristen? Damian? Tabby? Corrie? Chuck? Cassie?

I don't even know what's going on.
I feel so lost right now.
Lost and alone.

I look back at the people I had in my life before.
Sara Belk...
She's fucking amazing. Yet...i don't talk to her anymore.

Kathleen Klaumann.
My best friend for the longest. What the fuck went wrong?

I can't keep going through each day with friends that i feel don't even care.

Mike.
My life has been fucked up since you've been gone.
I can't stop thinking about you.
I can't get the picture of your casket out of my mind.
I can't wake up and NOT think about what you would be doing if you were here.
Why! i wish God would please just tell me why.
You didn't deserve it.
I swear to God I would take your place.
I PROMISE WITH ALL MY HEART I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU.

Scott!
Why the fuck did you go?
WHY! why can't you be here?
I miss you.


What do i do.....
Why am I losing all these people in my life?


Teresa Davis.
You. I dunno.
You mean so much to me.
I can't even explain how much you mean.
Everytime I see you, it makes my life so much better.
Everytime i get a text, call, comment, message from you...it makes me smile.

I wish I would have taken the chance.
I have feelings for you that I cannot shake.
It's hard.
You mean a lot to me.
If you EVER need anything....I'm here.

4 comments.:

secret love notes said...

we just need to hang out.
idk why it seems like we're not close.
cause we needa be. :(

Jackie's World! said...

that shit sucks.
:(

ginger verde said...

you feel like we're not close anymore? :( I didn't know, boo. I promise I'll try to do better from now on. Me loves you.

feenastyy said...

i feel the same way, all my "friends" seemed to have dipped off somewhere...smh =/. real friends will come back.