My cousin died today.


How can you convey the emotions you feel so strongly about in words? I don't think I can describe to you the pain that I feel right now. The anguish is eating me alive. Never in life did I ever think I would live to see the day when my cousin or any family member would be a part of a homicide.

They stabbed him right in his heart. It went all the way through his heart. How could you?

Artie rushed him tot he hospital. He died on the way there. They shocked him back to life. He was ridin it out. They took his heart out of his body, sewed it back together, and put it back in. You weren't coming back at first....so, why did God let you start working with your heart after 13 minutes? WHY?! Why did God give all of us hope? You started blanking and snoring that day. We all had so much hope in our hearts. So, why did you take a turn for the worst? Was it because your brain finally was waking p realizing how muc trauma you were going trough? They screwed holes in your head to try and releive the pressure, but it wasn't enough. that day you took a turn for the worst, you were 98% brain dead. You were practically dead then. I don't know why your mom and dad decided to keep you on the life support then. Why? You were just suffering. You had no chance of making it anyway. All that was left to do was turn the machine off and walk away. You were too far gone.

...And at 6:23 I got the text. You had just passed.

You were about to be 20.....damn.


iforgotmyname said...

"Loss saddens us
Hope comforts us
Love heals us"

For now I wish you and your family comfort. In the days ahead, I hope you all feel the healing warmth of love, from each other, and are able to grieve, but move on...

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry for your sudden lost. I send my condolences.

Anonymous said...

oh, honey I'm so sorry. my prayers & condolences go out to you & your family.

you'll get through it with the grace of God.

R. Alexandra said...

definitely sorry for your loss babygirl .

"to live in hearts we leave behind is not to die ."

Anonymous said...

my condolences to you and your family. i'm so sorry mama. keep your head up cause you knows hes looking down on you<3