3.29.2009

CHANGE ME.

So, I have been listening to this song "Change Me" off of Keri Hilson's new album. After I just actually started listening to it, I started thinking about the actual meaning to the song.

There's plenty of people who get into relationships and then break up and the break up is because the person is too controlling or is trying to change how you are or act. I would just like to know why. Why would people waste their time. Why would you waste time getting into a relationship if they don't like how the person is. If you have this idea of changing your partner, or anything of that nature, why would you even mess with them?

It makes no sense. If you aren't compatible in the beginning with that person then why would you waste your time? Now I do understand that sometimes people can seem different in the beginning, and sometimes it takes time to see their true colors, but I just don't understand.

Another thing I don't understand is when people say they "fell out of love". How can that happen so sudden? There has to be signs, or some sort of situations that occurred to make it that way, right? Partners shouldn't have to camouflage who they are to be within that relationship.



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Now playing: Keri Hilson - Change Me Featuring Akon
via FoxyTunes

3.27.2009

HE BEATS ME.



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Now playing: G-Mack - 01 get naked main
via FoxyTunes

SHE IS CRAZY!

OMFG.
Why couldn't Rihanna settle down for a minute?
She just cannot seem to stay away form the limelight.



Yes, Yes that is a gun tattoo on her body!
Does she have some secret revenge planned for Chris? This bitch....
I guess that tat could be cute, if all of this shit didn't just happen to her.
Whatever your prerogative is, though....

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Now playing: The Dream - Put It Down
via FoxyTunes

3.26.2009

GET OVER IT. THANKS.

So, Celeste was angry because I called her silly ass out over the phone today. Not even gonna go into it because I don't give a fuck, but yeah.

Anyways, today was boring as shit.
I didn't do anything I was supposed to do.
I started writing one letter.
And I need to finish two. FUCK!

And, I found out that even though I pre-ordered my Keri Hilson cd, I won't be recieving it until the 31th. Fuck you, man.

That's all.


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Now playing: J. Holiday - It's Yours
via FoxyTunes

"IF I WAS ON DRUGS I'D KiSS THAT DUDE"

HAAAAAAAAAAAA.
OMFGGGG.
Daryl Horner is fucking silly as fuck.
ANNNDD he is still repping Nebraska.
WOOT WOOT!






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Now playing: Dawn Richard - Falls Away
via FoxyTunes

3.25.2009

DAILYBOOTH.

Follow me on there.

http://dailybooth.com/feedmekicks

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Now playing: Melanie Fiona - It Kills Me
via FoxyTunes

"CRANK DAT CHRIS BROWN"





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Now playing: Melanie Fiona - It Kills Me
via FoxyTunes

"HE LOOKS LIKE A FUCKIN MONKEY MAN"

I swear to god these bitches are funny as FUCK!
Watch this shit.






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Now playing: Trey Songz - I'm So Paid (Freestyle)
via FoxyTunes

NEW.

Okay, so the whole template isn't new, but the header is. I liked it at first, but now it's just okay to me.

I didn't feel like changing much, including the colors- so I didn't.

Now, I just wish I had that Twitter App BS on my blogspot.
Someone, help?


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Now playing: Drake - A Night Off (feat. Lloyd)
via FoxyTunes

3.24.2009

PS, I LOVE YOU.

I watched this movie tonight. It was amazing. I thought it was going to be super sappy and lame, but it wasn't. I definately didn't expect the begining to spring out like that so quick, but it was cool.





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Now playing: Cam'ron - Cookies & Applejuice
via FoxyTunes

THIS JUST IN.

I just found out that there will be more than lil wayne, keri hilson, and gym class heros at the I AM MUSIC tour.

Drake will also be there along with some other people :)
I am super fucking excited.
Excited as shit. I swear to God, man.

Anyways, I love this video.

IF YOU TWITTER OR TUMBL....

So, I want to get more into other sites than just Myspace.

So I started a tumblr.com account and a twitter account.

I've had the damn twitter account, but I just don't understand the point to it?

Everyone says it's like addicting and shit, but I don't understand.

Someone enlighten me.
Anyways, hit me up on the sites!

http://feedmekicks.tumblr.com/

annnndddd....

http://twitter.com/feedmekicks



If you are on tumblr.com or twitter.com, please drop your links in the comment area!
THNKS!


There's also this new little thing for firefox users that shows up when I blog. It lets you tell people the curent song playing, so i'll be doing that. :)
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Now playing: Keri Hilson - Tell Him The Truth
via FoxyTunes

3.21.2009

IT'S COSMIC.

THIS IS AN OLDER POST FROM WHEN I HAD NO INTERNET.


March 14th, 2009.


So, yesterday I went cosmic bowling with my cousin Cassie, Nikki, my cousin Sara, and some other people Nikki knew. It was her birthday party type deal and it was pretty fun. Even though, I don’t think I EVER finished a game of bowling, I had loads of fun. There was a lot of people
that I didn’t know, so it was fun and interesting. There was this lady with like a HUGE ass, and I think she heard me and Cassie talking about her because soon after that she left. LMFAO.

I think that there’s always more room to get to know people, even if you don’t want to. I was having some discussion with my kid brother today about why he should try and make friends in all of his classes and not just sit there in all of them. He honestly didn’t think I was right, but I said all that I could. It’s weird to me because I never really saw other people outside my community. Like, I knew other people existed, but I never really thought it would be an option to get to know any of them.

For instance, I never really knew anybody from Central High School or South High School, so I never knew anybody from there. So when people would tell me “Oh do you know such and such”, my immediate response would be “What school do they go to”. If it was anything besides North High School, my answer was absolutely no, I wouldn’t know the person they were mentioning. That sounds silly, but that was how I thought. Now that I don’t go to school, I see no reason to ask what school they went/go to. It’s like now, people are people to me. There’s more than just people in Omaha North High School, or Omaha, or….the country for that matter. It just hit me recently, so I would hope that other people didn’t have such a close-minded outlook on things like this.

WHY DO YOU CALL YOURSELF A FRIEND?

THIS IS AN OLDER POST FROM WHEN I HAD NO INTERNET.


March 13, 2009

I’m just wondering, how can friends be so bitchy when you have been there for them from the beginning? How can someone just act like a complete bitch when you try to help them? It’s like, don’t you fucking see that I was saying that shit out of the kindness of my heart? Because you are supposed to be my FUCKING friend? Are you really that into yourself? Are you really that stuck in your small world that you can’t see that? I swear sometimes you seem like a sprung little bitch and it irks the fuck out of me. Seriously, you aren’t that great and it’s sad. That’s all I can really say about you. You’ve changed a lot. Actually no, you haven’t. People have seen how sprung you are over him for a while now. I just thought it would be a phase, to be honest.

Moving along, I had a good day at work today. Mike Wayne Woodridge. You are TOO adorable, sweety Anyways, work was fun today. It was pretty slow, which was good because I don’t have to do anything. ^_^. I got paid for my full hours, plus an extra one. I also got my package today. I couldn’t wait to give Rachel her gift. My brother got his 30h!3 shirt that I got him. I was kind of not happy when I couldn’t see his face when he saw it. Whatever though. I like my new bows, Lil Wayne shirt and TI shirt. Shits amazing. I can’t wait to go cosmic bowling tomorrow. I guess it will be nice to get my mind off of the same stuff its been on lately. I haven’t been doing anything, but working. Which completely sucks.

IF LIFE IS THIS...THEN WHAT?

I TYPED THIS WHEN I HAD NO INTERNET, SO THIS IS JUST AN OLD POST.


March 13, 2009.

My cousin Cassie and I were having this discussion through texts about life and death. How can God put people through so much, yet be called upon as our savior? I'm not questioning God and what He does. I'm not overly-religious, but I do believe in God as a higher power.

I've lost a few people in the past year and it's cut me so deep that I can't even summon myself to say I'm healing. I'm not. Cassie started off the conversation by asking me if there was ever times where I wished that I could talk to someone that had past so bad that I'd give basically anything to do so. The answer is, Yes. Yes, I would give anything in this world to just have one more conversation with a few people.

It sucks because when you think about the bigger picture, you never know what life is doing to you. You never know when your last day could be approaching. You never know how God will turn things around. I explained my perception of why people suffer to my cousin. I think God makes certain people suffer because the person He is trying to open His gates to doesn't want to go. They don't want to leave their loved ones. So they try and beat God's plan, in turn, making them suffer. They try so hard because they don't want to go and they don't think it's their time, but God really needs them so He does whatever He has to do to take them home.

Does that make sense though? That God puts His children through so much by either taking them or taking them from the people they love? Does it make sense that love is even an emotion or feeling that we are able to feel? Why would God make such an expression for us to feel, so that when we do feel it- he takes the person we love. God stabs you so deep that you never get over it. I know that people say time makes things better, but it doesn't. That is not true. It's become a never-ending cycle for me to fall asleep with tears trickling down my face. I wish I could bring back Mike and Scott.

Suicide is supposed to be a sin. So why do God's children do such a thing to be with Him? Why does God put that in His children's plan if it's such a sin? God takes the people He wants to shed from evil. God does mysterious things. I can't even fathom to understand why it has to happen.

Cassie mentioned the word "utopia", questioning the word in it's entirety. Why would there be such a word? A word that means "living in perfect harmony", that is nowhere near available here on Earth. I believe the word was made up by someone who was in search of that exact meaning. The word still exists because it’s the fantasy that nobody can really, truly reach. It sucks, but what can you do?

LOSING YOUR JOB SUCKS.




3.19.2009

I'M UNEMPLOYEED.

Yup.

I lost my job today.
The job that I've had for 2 years.

DARYL HORNER.

If you don't know this guy, you are missing out.

I seriously think he is FUCKING hilarious.

I haven't had internet for a while, and I still don't REALLY have it, but I had a good chunk of time tonight, and I was looking at the lastest videos from people I am subscribed to. This is one of the videos that was put out by Daryl. If you haven't subbed already, do ahead and do that. :)


3.18.2009

TUMBLR.

So, I made an account over there.

Not too sure how it works, but i'll link you:


http://feedmekicks.tumblr.com/


=/ Follow it or some shit.

3.13.2009

WHEN YOU TAKE A GLANCE BACK.

When you look back on things in life, well people in life, it's crazy to see how they have changed. I swear to God I never thought I would see Nuvia move from Nebraska. I swear to God I never thought she would be the type to have someone who treats her better than she treated herself. She got done wrong by so many guys, to see her in a new place and happy is amazing to me.

Two years ago when she moved from Nebraska, I was terrified. This girl was my best friend. She lived just next door and I was constantly there. She introduced me into some things I never thought I would learn about unless it wasn't for her. She really means a lot to me. I wish she could see this blog.

We had our hard times, but we always got through it. I swear I was always there when she needed me and the same for myself. She really has changed a lot and I'm proud of her.

I wish I could go to Kentucky and see her. Maybe I can. I just think too much will have changed to rekindle what was gone for two years.

3.10.2009

PIERCING SUCKAGE.

So, I had my helix pierced, if you don't know what that piercing is...it's on your ear. Watch the video of me getting it done...



Anyways, I got this pierced in August or something, and a few days ago my body rejected the piercing. It sucks, but what can I do.

It doesn't hurt, and it didn't hurt when the piercing just pushed my earring out either. I'm thinking about getting it re-done after it heals up completely.


I DID however get my 2nd conch pierced yesterday. I didn't record me getting it done, but here's the video of the first one....



It does hurt because they DO gauge it to a 14g, which is the size of a tongue bar. Whatever, though. I got both of them done now. :)

CONCERTS.

So, April 6th I will be seeing Keri Hilson, Gym Class Heros, and headliner- Lil Wayne on the I AM Music tour. I'm super hype about it all.

I will also be seeing 30h!3, Hit the lights, The Maine, and I think there's another band this month....

I'm very excited.

3.05.2009

HAIR CHANGE.

I got a hair cut today.
5 inches off plus layers and a side bang.

I'll post pictures after the jump!

KERI SHITS ON BEYONCE.

Yeah, I heard the remix.
All props go to Keri.
She's far more talented than Beyonce will EVER think of being.

Some one said the reason she's doing this is for publicity since her album is coming out soon, but I doubt that.
Keri is just doing her thing pretty much.