God, grant us the...
Serenity to accept things we cannot change,
Courage to change the things we can, and the
Wisdom to know the difference
Patience for the things that take time
Appreciation for all that we have, and
Tolerance for those with different struggles
Freedom to live beyond the limitations of our past ways, the
Ability to feel your love for us and our love for each other and the
Strength to get up and try again even when we feel it is hopeless.



Too many times I feel like people are trying to impress the wrong people. We get all done up to impress strangers, attract people of interest, make friends, ect. Is there ever a time where we work THAT hard to try and impress the people who really matter? One reason I think people forget to establish and build HONEST relationships with their family members is because there's this notion that they will always be there unconditionally. This may be true, BUT isn't something always greater when you put energy, time, and effort into it? Isn't something more fulfilling when you helped build it up to what it is?

Not all families have members who are there to support you, not all family members have unconditional love to give, but there's always going to be someone in your corner when it comes to family. A mother who birthed you, a father who taught you well, a grandmother who brought you in, a sibling who has become your best friend. These are people that you can never replace, not even if you tried or wanted to.
I wish people would understand that there's not always going to be a time to tell your mother that you love her, or your father, cousin, uncle, sister. A time will come when all you have left is you...and when that time comes, you will have wished you established something more.

Friends, co-workers, and general people come and go, you can never replace the blood you are connected with.



Mistakes are just that. They are mistakes. Things that must be used as a learning tool. Whether a mistake is petty, intentional, or even misconstrued, it's still a mistake. I know the "nobody is perfect" bullshit is very cliche, but that's really just what it is. Some mistakes can be bigger than others, and it makes everything harder to find the lesson, or to forgive the suspect. BUT life is short. Very short. And sometimes it's so short that you forget the meaning of enjoying it with people that you love because you are holding on to the wrong things. The wrong thing being mistakes.

This post is short, but I'm working on things in life. I feel like everyone has room to improve. As I look around, everything that people focuses on are negative. There's never anything GOOD that is a spectacle. There's never anybody "feeling some type of way" about something great. It's starting to make me understand that a lot of people have their priorities messed up and I don't want to be one of those people.



First of all, I feel like I have tons to say. LEEGOOO!

This blog has turned into something else. When I first started blogging, it was for my honors advanced creative writing class during my senior year. I wrote about my life, shit that happened, things I learned, ect. Now blogging is like a job for me. Everyone always wants promo and wants to be on my blog and ect. That's cool. I've always said that I like to support independent people who are actually on their grind. i always wanted to be known for something other than a "celeb gossip blog" like most that I read myself. I want people to actually READ it and to actually have something to say about what I'm posting. With that being said, I'm going to try and turn my blog back into what it should be.

People are somethin else. Everyone always wants sometin, but when YOU need somethin, there's nobody to be found. Everyone always wants to be your friend, but it's all just talk unless you really act like a friend. People count favors and are always quick to pull the "you owe me" card. Friends don't do that. I'd rather you not even act like a friend, then lead me to believe otherwise.

The numbers aint addin up. How I got over 2,100 Twitter followers, supposed Facebook readers, and avid blog readers, but I get more retweets of my blog URL than views? I think people RT the link to make it somethin it's not. If you aren't going to read or comment it, then why waste your time retweeting it? That's like buying heels when you only know how to walk in sneakers. It's not worth it at all. I'd rather have avid, honest readers than have people retweetin the link to get on my good side.

I want people to know the real me. I want people to know that I am a young person who is still strugglin to find herself. I want people to know that I'm not afraid to tell it like it is, or that I have issues in my life, or that I have emotions. I want people to know that I'm vulnerable and that I have bipolar issues. That's who I am and I want people to know that.

All in all, I just want to bring the blog back to where I want it and to where it doesn't feel like a job to me. I'm still going to post music related shit, I'm still going to support the people who support me, and I'm still going to speak on real shit. I won't get lost in the hype again.




This shit is just funny. Period.

This shit had me ROLLIN.

LMFAO. We see you Montell, pleadin the fifth & shit.

The dude who played Tyga....LMFAO.

YO! He dead ass really got slapped the fuck up. LMFAO!

I think this is the funniest shit. I watched it all the way through....three times.


So, I been lowkey lazy when it comes to my homie, Dread. I peeped his LP a little while back, and fell in love with it. The vibe that this LP gives isn't like what most music gives you. It's got a very unique sound. Something that's hard to get tired of. Some artists give you one type of music without any different type of direction. Dread doesn't keep the same concept with every single track, but still keeps it in the ballpark that keeps himself true to who he is. I heard about Dread through people on Twitter and I actually heard his music before I even had any type of conversation with him. It turns me off when there's an independent individual doin their thing, but have the worst attitude. This right here is a cool ass dude, though. I don't want to speak on Dread's behalf though, lemme give you the run down on this LP I speak of and you can fall in love with the music like I did.

It's hard to pick just a few songs that I like off the LP. I liked almost every track that was placed on this project, with the exception of like ONE. How many people give you an LP, EP, mixtape, album, ect and you can listen all the way through? I aint been able to do that in a minute.

For The Fans is probably one of my favorites on the LP.

Dilated Peoples - The word play, sound, ect is on POINT. I bump this track often.

Screwed Up - If you don't like this joint, you trippin. This is my second favorite and I can't listen to it without wantin to get super turnt up....and I don't even drink.


Don't sleep on Dread. Hit him up:






July Sixth Two Thousand Eight.

My heart stopped when I heard the news. I can never bring you back. I'll never forget you. I took our friendship for granted and I'm sorry. The times I walked around with you, the times I saw you at work, the times I texted your phone, the times you played poker at my house, the times on the bus....everything. I promise on my life I will never let time erase you.

"The righteous perish, and no one ponders it in his heart; devout men are taken away, and no one understands that the righteous are taken away to be spared from evil. Those who walk uprightly enter into peace; they find rest as they lie in death." Isaiah 57:1-2

*The pictures are cut off, but I don't care.



Clearly if you don't already know I'm a huge Chris Brown fan, then there's really something wrong. Anyway, I was on YouTube and I found this beat boxer named Anointed S. I found this video and fell in love. This is an amazing beat boxed version of Chris Brown & Tyga's track "Deuces".

You can find Anointed S on the following websites:




First of all, I want you to realize...this is someones MOTHER, GRANDMOTHER, SISTER, AUNT, ECT. Someone doing their fucking JOB. Someone who is trying to do right by the school, rules, bus, ect. Now why in the FUCK would you feel the need to talk back to a fucking bus driver? Because she told your retarded ass to sit down. You fuckin needed to sit down.

Thi shit pisses me off. He hit her more than what was necessary to get his point across. He didn't need to hit her to begin with, BUT he clearly went overboard. THis is the mess that makes you feel tough? That makes you feel big and bad? THE FUCK? If this really helps your street credentials, then you really are that wack.

I commend the other kids in the bus for not makin a huge scene and actually trying to stop this idiot, but all in all this shit is a mess.