MY TWIN.

Sometimes in life you think you're complete until something better comes along. I met this Justin guy and I never thought that he would be someone that I went to for advice, someone that I talk to everyday, or even someone that I would call my Twin. Even though Justin lives way far away from me, I feel like he's one of the best friends I have ever had.

People tend to overlook the simple things in life, when they are busy searching for things they don't have. I try not to overlook people like Justin because he's been there for me since day ONE. I haven't known him that long, but Justin and I have already been through a few things that I think have helped us grow closer. I know that Justin will always have my back, and I will have his as well. He's taught me so much in the short span of knowing him, I hope that he can learn from me too. Friends that encourage you to prosper and actually TALK to you about serious things when you need them to talk, is rare.

I wish people like Justin were more abundant in this world. True, honest, friends that are serious about your friendship are hard to find. Cherish the people that you have and figure out what they're really worth because I thought I had good friends until my Twin came around. NOW, I know that I wouldn't trade him for anything.

WELCOME.

So, I've been getting a lot of traffic. I've been postin different stuff lately. I wanr you guys to know that I don't try to be a music/celeb gossip blog. I try to use this space for the serious side of me, serious topics, and real shit. Don't get it confused. I throw posts up here about people I know, music that I dig, and ect. I just don't want this blog to get thrown into the wrong category. If you've recently followed this blog, tell me why you did. I wanna know what you guys want to see on this blog, and if you have anything you want me to blog about. I'd like to know. Make sure you drop a comment. You don't have to have a blogger account to drop a comment. If you comment and don't have a blogger account, make sure to drop a link to where I can reach you.

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OBSTACLES.

Sometimes is takes someone to inadvertently laugh in your face or at a situation you're a part of, for you to truly understand how someone constitutes the way you feel compared to themselves.

I've been having this struggle within myself lately. I've always had this struggle that I can't shake. The way I want to express myself doesn't "fit" with the people around me. I can't tell my mother I'm in love with a female because she doesn't accept bisexuality. I can't tell her that I recently got a tattoo that made me feel complete, because she doesn't approve. I can't tell her the black dude I'm interested....she doesn't approve.

What can I do? I feel like I'm in this box. This box that I can't get out of. I can't find the exit and its like its slowly filling up with water. I think this is the most unhappiest time I've had in my life...ever. There's so many great opportunities for me right now, but because I can't creatively express myself I really don't care about any of it.

How do you get passed a stage like this in your life? Even the strongest people around you can make it seem like the hardest task to overcome.

I've recently realized that people don't care about you or your feelings. They don't care how you end up feeling in the long run, if it doesn't benefit themselves. And that's the truth.

This isn't a cry for help nor is it a post to get attention. It's just how I honestly feel.

DON'T SLEEP ON THE WAS GOOH!

I know I post Will Smooth often, but I do it because the stuff he's been gifting me has been a drug. I did one line and can't shake it now. Like I've said before, Will Smooth isn't a dry character AT ALL and you can see that through his music.

Here to drop you some EXCLUSIVES that aren't out ANYWHERE yet, is I! WAS GOOOOH!

This first joint is so smooth. I love it. I can't stop playing it. I love Lloyd's voice first of all and Will Smooth on the joint is what tops it all off. Take a listen.
"I Can Be More"- Lloyd, J. Holiday, & Will Smooth.



Here's the second leak from Will Smooth.
"I Can't"- Mario & Will Smooth.

ENJOY!

IS IT THE COLOR?

A lot of things have been happening lately that make me really sit back and look at how society is. I've gotten into a few "squabbles" during the last few weeks about people on Twitter who throw around racial slurs and whatnot. To each is own, but whatever. That's not what this post is about.

I read my homeboy's blog yesterday and it made me think more on certain situations that have to do with color. I have been thinking about this already, but he made me want to actually blog about this topic.

Do black women always get mad when a white woman is with a black man? Now, I have dealt with this in some situations, but I don't want this to be personal to what I've been through. I really just want to understand how other races think about this. I know it happens, so basically what I'm asking is WHY and if EVERY black females thinks the same way. If so, why? Why is it a big deal if a white woman dates a black man and are they angry, jealous, saddened, or humiliated? What emotion REALLY is caused by this? Are you angry at the chick or the dude?...Both? Help me understand this issue.

I also notice that it's different when it comes to other races. My homegirl Laren notices the same thing too. Like why are you feelin some type of way about a white chick, but you don't about a hispanic or asian girl? Or DO YOU? I guess I just don't notice it as much if it is that way. It could possibly be because I am white and...i guess I just don't see it as much.

In a sense, this is also what gay/lesbian people go through. So, can you be a black female who supports gays and still not like an inter-racial relationship?

On the opposite hand, do white females get angry when they see a white man with a black woman? I personally don't, but I want to know what other people think. I don't really hear about relationships getting knocked when it's a black woman and a white man.

It's 2010 and we still have issues like this. I'm just trying to understand why the world is still feeling certain ways about situations like this.